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2 months of fear and progress
03.13.06 (10:53 pm)   [edit]
as the time passes, sometimes slowly, sometimes quickly, i look at all that has happened to my beautiful girl and all i can think of is how grateful i am that she is so strong and so determined and that i can still give her hugs and kiss each cheek and then her sweet lips...she is a miracle in the works and she continues to hold me in awe! April, this is such a comeback, you have no idea...and you won't ever really ever comprehend the love and the prayers that held you, me and our family up during this devestating crisis that was you! I love you my darling girl as much as if you were truly my own and i always will.xoxoxoxox mom
 
SOME OF THE REASONS THAT I LOVE APRIL
03.07.06 (2:04 pm)   [edit]
1. APRIL IS THE MOONBEAM LIGHTING MY WAY THROUGH THE DARK 2. APRIL HAS A BEAUTIFUL SPIRIT 3. APRIL IS HER DADDY’S DAUGHTER IN SO MANY WAYS : ) 4. HER ABILITY TO ADAPT AND LEARN 5. HER LAUGHTER AND HER SMILE 6. HER ORNERY-NESS 7. THE WAY SHE TAKES CARE OF HER HUSBAND AND HOME 8. HER KIND NATURE 9. HER GENEROSITY TOWARD OTHERS 10. HER “GREEN THUMB” 11. THE WAY SHE LOVES HER BROTHERS AND SISTERS 12. THE WAY THAT SHE STILL LOVES ME IN SPITE OF MYSELF!
 
I got a lift!
03.05.06 (9:26 am)   [edit]
Yesterday morning, my cell phone rang...it was in my purse and I was digging around to find it. Finally, I did, and my caller ID said it was David...April's hubby...so, I flip it open and say Good Morning David...and............are you listening?.......April says.........Hi MOM! ....and then a bunch of "blahblahblah" Thank YOU" ! My heart rose about the length of a football field... since I saw her and we cried, I have been so heartsick that I could hardly move! I really need to remember that she is going to have good days and bad and that while I am suffering with all of my own emotions, she is moving forward and not wallowing in self-pity! ANYWAY, they are on their way home and want to come by! I say, OMG! she is going to YELL at me...my house is in total disaster mode and I had just gotten out of bed (10 am on a Saturday!!!) So, moments later they pull up in front of my drive and she opens her door, Dave gets the wheelchair out and she says "NO"...so they put this heavy canvas strap thingy around her waist and she proceeds to WALK all the way into the house...Dave right by her side to grab the belt should she need him too and me following with the chair, just in case....OMG! I am so proud of her determination and inner strength! Of course, she starts making faces and looking at me because there is laundry all over the table and dishes in the sink and the bathrooms had not been cleaned in a bit...etc...I say, baby girl, don't look at the house, look at me! You know how your momma gets when she is sad! Today, I won't be sad and I will get some work done, I promise! She says "Thank You" and we sit down and visit and she gets to see her favorite "Patches", my little Boston that she loves dearly...I had crated Freckles and Boogie just to give her time with Patches and let them settle down...Patches gives her kisses and then runs to David and kisses him and then back and forth...April laughs and laughs.....funny how mom's and puppies can understand exactly what she is saying even when the words are jumbled! Can you tell how much better this all made me feel????????????? Love you all and thanks for your continued prayers and support... Always, Mimi xoxox
 
Pain and Tears
03.01.06 (9:46 pm)   [edit]
Yesterday, I pulled into the parking lot behind the Rehab center and saw April sitting alone on the Patio. I waved, got out of my truck and said a cheerful "HI"...no response..so I said, can I come and give you a Hug? I got a nod...so, I went over and hugged her...pulled a chair up close and April burst into tears...all the anger, fear frustration and lonliness expressed with abundant tears. I did my best to reassure her that all this will pass...but I know that she is heart sick and as her momma, so am I. I can only love her...I feel so helpless...I don't understand....I talk a good tale of hope and positive reinforcement, but I have been "sick at heart" since then....