A sinus infection!  Lucky me!

oh, well...i had to work on mother's day, which was probably good considering all my kids were out of town on breaks of one sort or another!  didn't feel "quite right", so i went home, bathed and went to sleep! 

monday i got up as usual, got to work, only to turn around and go home.  my head ached and i was chilled, in 85+ degree weather! 

today i saw my doctor...the ole' antibiotics should kick in and get rid of this infection.  now i get to anticipate the trusty other infection!  you ladies will understand : )  but i have medication in ready for that, too!

tomorrow is my birthday...i sure do hope to be feeling well enough to participate! 

the new boyfriend almost got tossed out, but i decided it was more me than him and he is willing to overlook my bad mood/bad behaviour because i am sick.  that says something good to me!  i don't like arguing and i don't like to be told how i should feel!  i got angry and spit back!  oh, well, learning to care about someone new is just so much work!  i used to have it so good and so easy being with sam!  we knew one another inside and out....but i know, especially now that we are approaching the 10 year mark, that i better figure it out or i will be a lonely, alone ole' gal! 

so happy birthday to me!  i love my birthday...did i tell you it is also my wedding anniversary?  sam married me on my twentieth birthday because he didn't want to marry a teenager!  LOL!  it's true!  he is so funny!

xoxoxo

there were days when i would get up, get my coffee, and then sit here at my desk, writing and reading and just generally not accomplishing much, except that you all helped me keep it together with your friendship and your uplifting words and expressions of love and kindness.  i still need that, but i am working at staying away from the computer and getting things done.  i love this new medication i am taking.  just a few milligrams and it's a world of difference.  i have just come home from work, stopped at the store for a few things needed, cleaned a bathroom, cleaned up the kitchen, vacuumed the house and mopped the floors!  my laundry is caught up, folded AND put away!  i am working two evenings a week helping april learn to read again...tonite, she and her DH and his sister took off for the beach, so i got a night off!  or at least, a nite off from reading...to get other things done.

also, i have finally met someone...someone who seems as interested in me and in spending time with me as i have hoped for!  tadaaaaa!  it has only been 3 dates, but he is very thoughtful, brought me roses, calls me every day, morning and evening!  i don't know for sure, but this sure has been fun!  dinners out, long phone conversations, hand holding!  now i am grinning.  he lives close by, too! which, around here, is amazing!  if you do meet someone, it is usually a trek across the world to try to get together!  so, wish me luck.

also, the lunatic member of my family seems to have discovered my blog.  i was going to back off and stay away, but to hell with him.  he has no real affect on my world.  he is nothing but a poor, pathetic and very mentally ill man!  so, that's that! 

my friend, PuC sent me lovely words and prayers...my friend, Apple and my friend, April, and my friend, ggirl and many others sent such loving messages!  thank you all!  i have missed you and will be checking in a bit more frequently...at least as frequently as a woman with two jobs, a business, 3 dogs and now, a boyfriend! can check in!

love to all!

xoxox

mimi

ok, so I am feeling more like myself.  I went to the doctor.  We decided that my idea about eliminating "medications" from my life wasn't such a great idea.  We decided to try a "different" medicine, and amazingly, a lot of my "symptoms" have either lessened or left!  sad, but true, I may have to take this stuff forever!  I suppose it's better than mood swings and suicidal thoughts.  life is certainly for the living, and since I have to be here, I may as well make it as pleasant as possible.

so, sorry for the extended absence and sorry to any and all that I have hurt in the process.  you know who you are : )

xoxox